Saturday, June 27, 2009

I have Nothing Together

I have nothing together. But I believe in a God who does. And who loves me even through that. And who desires me to be always joyful. And never down. And i can't even understand that.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with endurance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Heb 12:1

I used to think that we would try 'to be good' ( i know that's a 12 year old way to phrase 'be righteous', but whatever, it's my blog) for Him to thank Him. I know, that's sincerely what i thought, if you had asked me, why seek righteousness? I would say, because that's how we thank God for saving us, by being good.

That is so wrong.

Not only does it make the ability to be holy appear to be within our reach, (which it entirely is not) it sets us up for failure in THANKING GOD. Cause I will mess up, and then when i do, this philosophy leaves me thinking, I guess i wasn't so thankful afterall. It leaves me so empty. And chain smoking.

But, i think, the foundational piece of the beauty of the cross i was missing, is that the search for righteousness is the search for joy. I don't know if that's right, but it makes sense to me. Because righteousness is being in like mind with God; the sanctification process is when He works through you, and where is most joy found but in Him? And when are you most of Him then when you do His will? I'm not sure how this plays out in my life yet, but you need a philosophy first, to be followed by real action I'm sure.

this all came from a really bad night, and it's strange and comforting to think that even through that God was over it all. Being sovereign and good.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Right now i'm watching grease.

I have today off, and there has been this post i've been thinking about for a while. I haven't actually been organizing it, just thinking about it everytime I go to work.

Also, just side note, john travolta is an INSANE dancer right now. There's a lot of hip action going on.

I was thinking about the different types of people I have met at work. Specifically, how different they are from the ones from A&M, church, or any other unrealistic social bubble I'm a part of. I really enjoy talking with people with views that are completely different from mine. I love learning about what makes people tick, what they really believe deep down, and appreciate the genuineness about it all. The majority of the people I work with, are not believers in Jesus, or profess any loyalty to a religion. With the organizations I am involved, I rarely get a chance to talk to people who are not believers, which is both a good and bad thing.

Anyway, something I've seen, is that it has been a learning experience for me. I have learned that I am a very agreeable person. That I get along with all of them, most people, very well. They do not hate me, feel uncomfortable around me, and talk with me openly about all of their (sometimes unlawful) shenanigans.

Now, it shouldn't be like that? I don't see how it could not be, unless I was condemning everything everyone did, all the time. Then the world would hate me. But, I cannot condemn people if what they do is what I do, I sin everyday. I mess up everyday. I think I should be more bothered by being so easily accepted by people at work, but I am not. I'm interested to see where it can go.